Our Wedding Vows


Igor, my Love, I love you so much. I believe that God has led me to you and I am confident that His will is being fulfilled today. You are more than I deserve. You are a gift from above.
I never knew that I can love and be loved by someone so much on this earth until I met you.

Today I promise you my faithfulness, to follow you through all of life’s experiences as you follow God, that together we may grow in the likeness of Christ and our home be a praise to Him. I pray that He molds me to be the wife of your dreams, but more importantly a wife in whom He is pleased. I will cover you in prayers. I will speak words of kindness and not criticism. I will honor and respect you as the spiritual head of our home. I will support you in good times and in bad and I will build you up when life weighs you down. I will encourage you to always walk into God’s purpose of your life. From the depth of my being, I will seek to be open and honest with you. And I say these things believing that God is in the midst of them all.

Quoting the Book of Ruth 1:16-17 I’m telling this to you,

“Do not urge me to leave you or to return from following you. For where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people shall be my people, and your God my God.”



Me (Igor)

Elina Ozolina. I wish I could say that from the moment I saw you, I fell in love with you and I knew you were the one, but this isn’t true. I did see you as incredibly beautiful and down to earth, full of smiles and laughter, and we instantly connected and quickly became best friends. Even though I wasn’t planning to give away my heart to you, God had other plans. To this day I thank him and question why he has blessed me so much with you. You are more than what I would ever wish to ask God for. Once I saw how much you love God, I knew that I would never want to let you go.

I promise to Treasure, Lead, Respect, Cherish, Protect, Be Faithful, and give myself up for you as Christ gave himself up for his bride. I promise to love you till the last day of my life, whatever God chooses for us to provide, and for Him in our marriage to be glorified. I am looking forward to spending time with you as my wife right by my side. Elina, you are the love of my life, my best friend and my bride.

And to quote one of my absolute favorite Pastors, John Piper from his book, that we both read, “This Momentary Marriage”:

“Staying married, therefore, is not about staying in love. It is about keeping covenant. “Till death do us part,” or, “As long as we both shall live” is sacred covenant promise—the same kind Jesus made with his bride when he died for her.”




Did the Pharisees commit eternal sin?

but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will never be forgiven; they are guilty of an eternal sin.” He said this because they were saying, “He has an impure spirit.” (Marks 3:29-30)

The pharisees, also known as “Teachers of the Law” might of been accused by Jesus of blaspheming the Holy Spirit in my opinion, which is an eternal sin that is possibly unforgivable. To me this clearly shows that the religious, hypocritical pharisees were possibly in the worst circumstance to be, to be able to come to repentance. This is why we probably see throughout the gospels why Jesus had such a strong reaction toward pharisees and sadducees whenever he encountered with them. Be careful not to become a modern pharisee.

Bible Spoiler?

When I was reading through the book of Mark and came across a verse early on in chapter 3.

and Judas Iscariot, who betrayed him. (Mark 3:19)

And thought to myself, what a huge spoiler, why would the author of the Bible do that? But then I realized that the first time reading through the Bible isn’t even that of a huge importance, we are supposed to read over, and over again. Bible is not meant to be read as a one time story. Once we know the story, we need to go deeper and figure out what is the point of this story.

My Testimony

When ever I heard a “good” testimony, such as recovering drug addict or someone who was totally lost, I always wanted such testimony. I always considered mine to be really boring, I grew up in a Christian family that loves Jesus. Went to church that preached Jesus and it would be a really smooth, and easy conversion for anyone in such environment. But other testimonies seem much more powerful and compelling. But then I realized that my testimony is much, much more powerful. I grew up in the most dangerous circumstances, a religion called “Christianity”. I my self grew up a lukewarm “Christian”, being comforted in the surrounding environment on the path of self destruction and wrath of God, and not seeing the absolute danger that I was in. I believe it is absolutely so much harder for a religious person to be converted than an individual who does not claim to be a Christian.

So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth. (Revelation 3:16)

God is Merciful

When a horrible tragedy happens, we and many others often might think, Where was God? How did he allow this to happen?

Even though the Bible does not speak directly about every certain situation, I am reminded that there are certain truth’s in the Bible and I just need to make sense of them. First of all, God is love. Next, God is a just perfect God and loves holiness and justice and therefore can not look the other way when we sin. If we realize that we are sinners in God’s eyes and deserve the full wrath of a just God, but for some unknown, loving, and not deserving mercy are not the ones affected by such tragedy, we realize how amazing our loving God is. And instead of blaming God, we should ask ourselves, Why wasn’t it me? And we must thank Him that He is a merciful God, and pray for anyone affected that God would bring healing mercy to those people as well.

Or those eighteen on whom the tower in Siloam fell and killed them: do you think that they were worse offenders than all the others who lived in Jerusalem? No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all likewise perish.” (Luke 13:4, 5)

Praying only when we need Him

I’ve heard people say that when we pray, it shouldn’t be only when we need Him, and run to Jesus only when we are in trouble. A thought came to my mind, what if we truly had a proper biblical understanding of our current state, a theology of total depravity. If we really saw ourselves for who we are then we would be praying all the time, knowing we are in danger constantly. So, next time we see or hear someone talk about the idea of “Praying only when we need Him”, the problem is not that we shouldn’t run to him only when we need him, but that we need to be doing it more often, like constantly. We don’t fully understand that we are in constant and desperate need of our Savior to survive in this world, and need to be in contact with him constantly, as the bible suggests.

Sinners and Saints

When the bible talks about how everyone sins and that there is no one is righteous, it refers to the depravity of people. We can not, not sin (I know, double negative) because of our corrupt nature, meaning we cannot come to God and attain a relationship with Him all on our own. It is not in our power and is impossible because of the inclination of our wicked heart. As Mark Driscoll says, We are sinners by nature and choice.

But then on the other hand, when the bible speaks that we need to pursue righteousness and carry our cross and put our sins to death, it’s talking about how the Holy Spirit that we receive and it enables us, and our new nature that comes from Jesus Christ and we begin to desire holiness and righteousness, and begin to passionately hate sin.

So when looking at two different verses not as contradicting, but as different perspectives. Both are true in their own context.

as it is written: “None is righteous, no, not one; no one understands; no one seeks for God. All have turned aside; together they have become worthless; no one does good, not even one.” (Romans 3:10-12)

And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. (Matthew 10:38)

Why do we pray

Have you ever asked yourself any of these questions: Why do we pray? If God knows what we need before we even ask, what is the point then for our prayer? Can our prayer change anything? Can it change Gods plan? I most likely don’t fully understand the answers to all of these questions my self, but there is something that came to mind when thinking about this.

First of all, I believe that God does answers prayers, and wants us to pray all the time. But, instead of answering these questions, I want to discuss one of the reasons when we pray, we should take in consideration. When reading John Pipers book, called this Momentary Marriage, I realized that marriage is to Glorify God, and I applied this to my everyday life and prayer. I started praying with this thought in mind: If something terrible happened in my life or someone else’s, first thing I would say to God is to fix this particular situation, as if God was unaware or was patiently waiting for my prayer to finally fix, heal, restore, or what ever the circumstance might be. I realized that one of the reasons why God would wants me to pray is for Him to be Glorified, to let me know that He is enough, and it is because of Him that everything comes to pass. I think God wants us to realize that we need to seek him in such situations not just for Him to help us out, but Him first most, and trust that what ever happens for better or for worse, is part of his ultimate plan and that this is best for me. It is totally normal for me to pray for my healing when I’m sick, but I think if I knew Gods plan, my prayer could be completely different. What would be the point of an individual getting sick, then he prays for healing, gets healed and life moves along as if nothing happened? If no lesson was learned, the least that should of happened is that God should of been glorified to the fullest, and His glory and mercy is displayed to the world through your life showing that God is in the center of your life and you live your life as if nothing matters except Him, and to glorify Him.

To this end we always pray for you, that our God may make you worthy of his calling and may fulfill every resolve for good and every work of faith by his power, so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ. (2 Thessalonians 1:11, 12)

So when I pray, I try to pray something along these lines: God you know everything, and everything is in your hand. You already know what I’m going to say. You know the desires of my heart and know what I desperately want from you. But I pray that you would be glorified through my life and my life would show the world that you are enough, even in my sorrow. Teach me through this how to seek you desperately, and to trust you and rejoice knowing that you are my God who is on my side and that you loved me first. Please help me understand your ways, and grow closer to you more than ever.

God talks

I was thinking about how God speaks to us, and it seemed as though it’s never clear to us how exactly that happens and probably most of us would absolutely love and want for God to speak to us with a loud and clear voice. Similarly to how He did in the old testament.

God may not always speak to us in a clear voice, even though He absolutely can and does. I know for sure one way of how you can hear his voice and allow him to speak to you.

Read the bible, if you are not already. It is God speaking directly to you. If you don’t start there, it is foolish for you to expect any kind of supernatural voice of God from heaven, when you’re not reading your bible and allow God to speak to you.

So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ. (Romans 10:17)

Glad in his heart

Refer to Exodus 4:10-17

When Moses didn’t want to do what the Lord asked of him and made excuses, and even said, send someone else. The Lord said that your brother Aaron, will speak for you. And He said that when he will see you, he will be glad in his heart.

It’s really interesting, because it seems that Moses wasn’t too excited about the request from God, and I don’t know if I would have said anything differently, have the excitement that he was lacking, or be up for that challenge. But Aaron on the other hand, and I might be looking too much in to it and probably am, but since Aaron not only would be glad but it mentions that he would be glad in his heart. Which make me think it would be really genuine. We can say that he would be glad because he would see Moses, and that would be the only reason, but I think there is more to it. I believe the Bible shows us that Aaron would be genuinely happy to be part of God’s plan.

So my question is, when opportunity arises, do we find excuses or “valid reasons” why it should be someone else and/or maybe next time and not now? Or do we find that joy in our heart to be part of it, and thank God that He allowed us, and gave us this precious gift of grace to be part of his eternal plan.